With others he's hedged on it, lied about it. Caroline had seen it, but with the others he shrugged and dismissed it. Other wolves though they know the truth and they know what that means, what he's been through.

"Yeah, it sucked. It was... horrific, but the idea of being Klaus' fucking puppet was more terrifying."

And it still is, even if he's fairly sure it will never happen again.

He looks at her for a long moment because she got something he couldn't always explain and no one seemed to understand. "Exhausted all the time except my body heals it," he agrees in a soft voice.

"I used to play football. I enjoyed a lot of sports. I was a rich kid in a town where my family were the founders and leaders. I was the son of the mayor. I mostly partied and drove fast and... and squandered all of my life before I was triggered. Then everything was focused on vampires and assholes and trying to save those I care about." He snorts, rolling his eyes. "Speaking of exhausting things."

He's never gone back to calm, to relaxing, to having fun. His life is just this now.